Bradford Middleton, 12/16/2019
Current Occupation: Low-grade sales assistant for big supermarket company.
Former Occupation: Student, Music PR, writer, admin serf.
Contact Information: Bradford Middleton lives in Brighton on England's south coast. When he isn't writing stories and poems he can often be found on the check-out at a local supermarket. For more from him follow @BradfordMiddle5 on Twitter.
STRANGE DAY AT WORK
Sunday afternoon and I walk through the door
Loathing myself and desperate for a caffeine shot
I get in downstairs and work is ready for me
But alas today I certainly ain’t ready for this
As I feel myself close to tears again as the sense
Of worthlessness is insurmountable as I regret
Every damn thing I did the day before. That first
Beer around two and that shot of tequila around half
Three that signaled the end, the end of my mind
And the end of any hope of a calming day of rest.
From there it just got worse, rushing headlong into
The drink and then the smoke, walking round and
Round, then home at last.
Sunday afternoon and I get sent to the checkout
As they say I’m the best one. I go on, desperate
To get this shift out of the way, but as the day wears
On my nerves calm and my mood brightens. I eat
Some food and find myself nearly happy as at last
I find a way out of my gloom. Now this is odd
As in all these years of working food retail never has
This happened before, turn up feeling horrible full of
Regret about what I could have done and then by the
End of my shift I leave smiling, turning down a visit
To the pub as I go on home and straight to bed.
GET THIS WEEK OVER WITH
This damn last week has seen me
Killing it all the time.
Working is easy when you don’t really
Care or need it and
The rest of time has just been spent
Doing what it is i love to do
It’s all i need but this morning i sit
Here completely exhausted.
Tomorrow i’m back at work and 4
More to follow after that is
Sure to leave me feeling even worse
But maybe i can take this time to
Just slog it out
Get it done and
Then lay in my darkened room
For another 4 day weekend
Beginning next Friday.
Maybe i’ll sit around reading Sartre
Contemplating the human condition
Then again maybe not.
But this week i’ll step away from the word
As it’ll just be a struggle to get through
And then next week i’ll pick up a book and
Then, maybe, it’ll be time to start work
On my next one.